One Life Time Is Not Enough To Understand Someone!

Sometimes One Life Time Is Not Enough To Understand Someone!

I discovered something new about myself one day. It was a bit strange :(

I always enjoyed working. Everytime I thought about my past, there was one thing which had given me lot of happiness and energy. My work. I enjoyed daily going to office to be precise Subex. Talking to people, providing solutions to problems which was part of my job for a long time. People used to get amazed by my energy levels. I had got some appreciation also for my enthusiasm from my bosses, peers and friends. I never knew why I enjoyed my work so much. This is one question I kept asking myself many a times but there was no answer.

Things continued like this for years together. I used enjoy the day I get my salary credited to my account. I get a SMS alert. And then slowly everyone around me also gets the messages and start discussing that Salary credited. It used to be first of every month or earlier if first turns out to be a weekend or holiday. After 6 years, Subex started getting into loss. People were fired, no hikes, lot of rumors, etc, etc

Worst happened, on 1st of a month, I dint receive any message of salary. I waited for a day, no salary. Next day again no salary. After 3 days, managers updated that there will be delay for a week. It continued like this for a week. And after 6 days, salary was credited. I was so upset the whole week. The hikes never bothered me. Only appraisal remarks kept me motivated. Then, when salary was delayed, I should have kept going. Why was i upset? Why did my energy drop? Was I working for salary alone??? These thoughts keep killing me at times. I must say that during those days I had lot of financial commitments too. But still? Was I working for money alone?