One Life Time Is Not Enough To Understand Someone!

Sometimes One Life Time Is Not Enough To Understand Someone!

I discovered something new about myself one day. It was a bit strange :(

I always enjoyed working. Everytime I thought about my past, there was one thing which had given me lot of happiness and energy. My work. I enjoyed daily going to office to be precise Subex. Talking to people, providing solutions to problems which was part of my job for a long time. People used to get amazed by my energy levels. I had got some appreciation also for my enthusiasm from my bosses, peers and friends. I never knew why I enjoyed my work so much. This is one question I kept asking myself many a times but there was no answer.

Things continued like this for years together. I used enjoy the day I get my salary credited to my account. I get a SMS alert. And then slowly everyone around me also gets the messages and start discussing that Salary credited. It used to be first of every month or earlier if first turns out to be a weekend or holiday. After 6 years, Subex started getting into loss. People were fired, no hikes, lot of rumors, etc, etc

Worst happened, on 1st of a month, I dint receive any message of salary. I waited for a day, no salary. Next day again no salary. After 3 days, managers updated that there will be delay for a week. It continued like this for a week. And after 6 days, salary was credited. I was so upset the whole week. The hikes never bothered me. Only appraisal remarks kept me motivated. Then, when salary was delayed, I should have kept going. Why was i upset? Why did my energy drop? Was I working for salary alone??? These thoughts keep killing me at times. I must say that during those days I had lot of financial commitments too. But still? Was I working for money alone?

JhillMil & MilJhil, My Darlings!

One fine day, 17th July 2014 while back from office, i picked swim suit for Bhavish and driving back home.  The steering touches my big tummy! Yes, I am expecting: 8 months now. I am due in a month.

I have 10 mins to reach home, by then I felt some pain. Just being a little cautious, I drove to a nearby hospital. They told me that I am in labour. I had C-section for Bhavish, so had no clue that this is it. I had read a lot of blogs on how painful the labour can be. But I was surprised that I was not going through any of it.

Soon I delivered a girl. I was little tiered, so could not see her face properly. All I remember is that she was very small but very beautiful though the nurses hadn't washed her yet! My tummy was still full, I asked the nurse as to why I feel I am not done yet? The nurse replied, cos there is one more inside. OMG! I was shocked because the scan I had sometime back said there is only one life inside. I was worried, I asked the nurse again as to how is this possible?? Nurse had no clue as it was different hospital I consulted. Soon I was in labour again. My clothes were full of blood already. Here comes another girl. She was very tiny, as much as my palm.

By then Bhavish and my parents reached hospital. I am out of labour to my room. I tell Bhavish that there are two girls and ask him what do we name them. Super excited he says, "Amma, lets call them Jhilmil and Miljhil". I am so very happy. All this while I had only thought of a girl child and now I am blessed with two. I thank god so many times. Happiness is all over my face. Bhavish is waiting to see the kids, They have not got them out yet.

By then, from far I can hear my mom shouting "Bhagya, its 9.30 am. Don't you have plans to go to office today??". Just then I got out of my dream and ask her "Really, is it 9.30 already???". I see Bhavish sleeping next to me. He is in deep sleep as always!

OMG! I had to give some sick reason for being late to office. I quickly messaged some reason to my boss, got ready and reached office an hour later.

I keep getting lot of crazy dreams, but I must say, this was the most pleasant dream I ever had so far.

From the time, Bhavish is 4, I have been talking to him about a new member in the family. Though I had not planned anything seriously. But Bhavish and I have even chosen a name to the new one already! We decided that it should be a girl. I wanted to name her Eva, June, Kanasu, etc. Reasons later!

After few years, I moved to the US. Bhavish followed me after some time. He is 6.5 years now.  But I am wondering why dint Bhavish name them as June and Kanasu in the dream :|